saturday adventure

No we are not stranded on an island and doing another version of castaway . We are there on the meeting place a.k.a cr trying our best to evade the friendly approach (read between the lines we mean attack) of a non existing friend.

Now we know the meaning of the word "paranoid" ha ha ha ha the hard way.

Anyways , we have waited and waited for what seems like eternity until we have decided to go out and face our fears (mostly her fear) and what do you know, he is still there. Waiting patiently for us to leave our hideaway.

How ironic ....we are also waiting for him to leave.....us alone ha ha ha ha ha.

My outspoken friend decided to wait up for me in a desperate attempt to cut him lose. It was also her subtle way of telling him to "get out, scram, ur not my type"in a manner that is not offending. Unfortunately the signal was too subtle so it did not have any effect on him. He followed us , still waiting for my friend to leave the office with him.

Finally she had to say ...sige una ka na ,maya pa ko uwi eh .Finally he got the message and scrammed out of our sight like a pussycat not having his fsh when he was promised to be given one.

hay we could finally breath in peace.........

or should i say what a relief( to her)

Paranoid kasi eh lolz

hay what an adventure...........

A Creed to live by

Just want to share with you guys a poem that i have encountered . This is what i am reading whenever i am depressed or feel that i am ....anyways here it is .

Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others
It is because that you are different that each of us is special
Don't set your goals too high by what other people feel important
Only you know what is best for you
Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart
Cling to them as you would to your life
For without them, life is meaningless
Don't let your life slip through our fingers
By living in the past or for the future
By living one day at a time
You live all the days of your life
Don't give up when you have something to give
Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying
Don't be afraid to encounter risk
It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave
Don't shut love of your life
by saying it is imposssible to find
The quickest way to receive love is to give love
The quickest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly
And the best way to keep love is to give it wings
Don't dismiss your dreams , to be without dreams is to be without hope
To be without hope is to be without a purpose.
Don't run through life so fast that you forget,
not only what where you have been , but also where you are going .

Life is not a race but a journey to be savored every step of the way !!

the real me

Funny how you assume a personality once they have said that it is you. I was called Krayzie here in the office because of the meaning that this word represent.

I am outrageous
I am insane
I am unpredictable

Or is that only a portion of the bigger chunk of me that is dying to get out (alter ego?) maybe ...

I have always wanted to go on a soul searching session on a mountain to get in touch with a part of me that i have left behind intentionally.Why ? just like what i have told someone eons ago . I forget so that i can live . I forget so that i can savor the happiness that i am experiencing right now. I forget so that i can be free of the chains that have kept me in the dark for so long . I forget so that i can love those i consider special and close to my heart . I forget so that i can be me once again. . . without the cloud of guilt and shame that has been haunting me for so long.

So here i am trying to live life as if i am all that and more . Trying to be the girl i once was .

Finally i am me again......

down the drain

I recently had a pleasant turned sour friendship with someone whom i thought is decent enough to handle things that are ....well...sensitive... turns out...he cannot....

I was really disappointed that someone that .....whats the term...intelligent...decent??? will cross the boundary and reduce what he is to ...something i did not really expect. I am not really angry nor do i feel hate towards that person. I just feel sad and disappointed because some of the friendship that he has can never be the same again. It was destroyed and the trust that came with such gift was lost as if it was not there.

All that remained is something called respect that is trying to cover up a feeling that cannot be revealed nor entertained unless you want something bigger to be destroyed.

warming up

hay at long last ....i can now post at this blog. i can feel my creative juices leaving me as it took too long for me to think of a rather interesting username and title for this one. All of the name i can think of is either taken or not available....what a life....always naughty and making me feel giddy with excitement.....hay ........